:: State of Mind ::

:: Thursday, August 19, 2004 ::

I know that nothing is like the movies....
but i miss some of those feelings.
I just saw a cheesy, fantasy movie (Princess Diaries 2) And i realize that nothing like that really happens, but i miss that level of happiness and laughter. It seems like lately, i feel so hurried. I feel like i am growing up really fast and that i am almost alone in doing so. Not that it is a bad thing. I am accomplishing my ultimate career goal but i almost feel like an ancient soul, rather than a carefree, fun-loving 22 year old. I want to be girly and have the fairytale romance story. I want to be a rockstar and have the fun. I want to be rugged and climb mountains. I want to be a kid and just run and jump and spin around. I want to be bohemian and artsy and feel creative.I want to travel and see the world. I want the fanfair and formal events where i can dress in ball gowns and feel regal. I want to be a model and be seen in magazines. I want so many things yet i feel that i am just rushing toward this goal of my own business and making a living. All that is well and good but i dont want to do it while forsaking all of the other things i want. Should i have to settle and give up on some of those other things. I guess in a way i want the picture perfect life....something people see in the movies. Does that exist? Doubtful but i dont want to lose hope in the possibility. i want it!

:: BAlbretsen 8:14:00 PM [+] ::
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