:: State of Mind ::

:: Thursday, November 28, 2002 ::

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!!
it is officially turkey day and of course i watched the macy's day parade.how cool it would have been to actually have been there... but oh well. maybe in a couple years. hmm... so monday i arrived home after nearly missing my flight....thank you very much (you know who you are!!) and the fact that they picked MY bags to search didnt help. so when i got to the gate they said they had already cleared the flight but they let me on... and then thanks to the fuel trucks alternator going out...we had to sit there on the plane for nearly an hour. GRRRRR but all is well. i got home and then the whole fa,oily (plus katie) went to dinner at longhorn and then i spent the night with katie. she is so great. i just love her to death! tuesday was good because i started my day with none other than a chick-fil-a biscuit... i had almost forgotten how close to heaven those things were. YUM!!!!! the rest of the day was not that eventful until that evening. mike came to pick me up since i was without a car and we went to the shoppes at east chase. ran into cynthia and nick (old friends from BTW) while we were there. and then went to chick-fil-a for dinner and saw jennie pratt,. odd!!! after that we just spent the rest of the evening at ginnis until i was so tired that i was having trouble staying awake...plus my back was KILLING me for some reason. so i went home. i really missed my "last call" but i know that parents come first so it wasnt that big of a deal. wednesday brought absolutely NOTHING! i had talked about hanging out w/ kev but as the night went on i just didnt feel like doing anything...so... i went to rent sleepless in seatle for my mother, purchase some coffee for myself and for this weekend (in the event) and purchase a pilates tape for mom and i to do together while i am home and HOPEFULLY she will keep it up once i leave (HINT HINT MOTHER!!!!) so today was thanksgiving. i slept til 10:30 which is unlike me. you know.,. i have noticed over the past week or so... i go to sleep holding hugs and wake up holding him. even when i wake up in the middle of the night...i still have him clutched tight. thats odd.... seems like through tossing and turning...id "lose him" at some point...but i have yet to do that! hmm...so back to what i was saying about thanksgiving. today daddy bill (my grandfather for those who dont know) came out to the house and the 5 of us had thanksgiving lunch. GOOD STUFF! turkey, dressing, green bean casserole, sweet potato casserole, mashed potatoes, congealled salad, rolls, fruit salad, pumpkin pie, pecan pie, cheesecake, and red velvet cake!!! YUM! wasnt as fond of the fried turkey as i was the smoked turkey from last year but i suppose it is good to try something new. we just finished playing rook. mom and dad were teaching barrett and me. im not so good at it but then again im not that bad either. it was pretty fun...reminded me of old times when we used to sit up til 3am playing spades and then go out for fresh hot krispy kreme. its a shame they arent open now...oh well...everyone deserves thanksgiving off. so i jsut got a phone call as well... and YES I AM READY FOR IT TO BE SATURDAY!!!!!!! i cannot wait. i cant stop thinking about it...about you! arg...i cant explain the excitement. im about to burst!!! i am glad to hear about your luck with the laptops. and dont worry i totally understand if you give them to your sister or family or keep them or whatever. i realized when i said what i did about making you an offer that odds were... everone else you had told about that probably said the same thing as me. so its cool.. but like i said...i would pay you. im not asking for a free gift. i really hope that your visit with your parents has been good. i know you say that you are excited about sat as well... but as my mother has been reminding me (every single time that i say "i want it to be saturday") dont wish your life away! enjoy the journey. saturday will be here soom enough! man that is so much easier said than done! but oh well....thats life. im still super excited. i just feel like dancing and screaming and shouting and laughing and spinning around til im too dizzy to stand up!!! anyway..so that is where i am right now. that catches the world up on my life (as though it were increadably interresting or something. HA) so for now... i am going to rejoin the family in the den... im sure they are watching football or something of that nature. so... i hope this hasnt bored anyone to very much and if it did...its your own fault.. you could have quit reading at any point! so... have a wonderful black friday tomorrow and for all of you who are insane enough to brave the shopping malls...GOOD LUCK! and im sure if i dont post again for a few days YOU CAN COUNT on a post after this weekend! stay tuned....same bat time same bat channel!!
~Angel
:: BAlbretsen 9:01:00 PM [+] ::
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Man, I have so much on my mind that I want to write that I dont know if my hands can type fast enough to keep up! GRR. Oh well...here goes. We shall see. Sooooo... You know..things can go so wrong yet some people can make things so much better. So I have REALLY enjoyed keeping up with Jacks website. He is so exposed on there. Openly expressing his thoughts on anything and everything. By the way...yes you are definitely THE COOLEST BROTHER ON THE PLANET. So anyway. The weekend is finally over and it is Monday. Time to head home for the week. Kinda nerve wracking.but it will be ok. Meeting up with Caleb in the ATL airport and giving him the home field advantage. Hmmm. Oh well. Im sure its nothing to worry about. I can handle you for an hour :-) so...Yesterday I had a MAJOR stress moment. My car had been making a funny sound since Saturday. So I have been keeping an eye on it. Yesterday it sounded a little worse so sure enough I have lost a pulley that works with the serpentine belt. Sooo the belt is loosely hanging on. Surprised it hasnt slipped off and screwed up everything. So I panicked and had to find a way to get to the airport and a way to get my car fixed. So all that is taken care of. I am expecting the tow truck any minute now. Thats such fun! (notice the sarcasm) anyway.

You know its funny how things all work together. The other day I posted about my thoughts on virginity and alcohol. Later that evening I spoke with both Caleb and Jack on the subject and that was definitely interesting. I enjoy getting into those types of conversations to an extent. You know. Just a good way to see other sides of situations and help me to evaluate where I stand and why. Then, yesterday in church, our impact group was discussing what motivates us to live a life pleasing to God. Now I realize that isnt the same topic that jack, Caleb and I had, but it led to my analysis of things. You know, my faith is a big factor for the decisions that I have made. Its a lifestyle and is a part of who I am therefore it is naturally going to be an influence. Often times I get into discussions that have moral basis and people always say something of the nature "well the Bible never said" You know I have no problem supporting my opinions and beliefs scripturally and I guess I should be flattered that people know me well enough and acknowledge my faith enough that they feel that my beliefs are strictly due to my faith and biblical reasons, but I get so frustrated by that. You know... I am a person, and I think that I am an intellectual person at that. I think and I enjoy logic and reason. I have strong beliefs but the reason that I have those beliefs is not because I was raised to believe a certain thing, or that I was "brainwashed" by religion. I have my beliefs, yes, beliefs that were influenced by my parents and my faith, but they are beliefs that, once I was old enough, I searched out for myself. I wanted to know the "why" and not just believe something because someone said so. I like to take the strongest opposition and be able to search what I believe based on that to see whether or not my belief still holds water. Anyway. Sorry to go off on a tangent about that...but I like to think that I am a strong enough person and a free enough thinker that I can hold beliefs and ideas based on knowledge and good judgment and reason, but still encompassing my faith.

So I am heading home in about 4 hours. Hmm... I have plans with Katie-bug this evening. Thats cool. She is such a great friend. I dont know exactly what we are going to do but I know whatever it is, it will be fun. Its so great to be able to still have someone close to connect with. She and I just relate so well. Love ya Katie!
Mom told me that she hung the wreaths on all the windows!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!

Jack has to go back to his old high school today in his dress grays and speak! HAHA! Sorry... but I find that amusing. As anti west point as he is and he has to go speak on it! That¡¦s sooooo funny. Good luck Jack! Just remember....all the women there will love a guy in uniform! LOL.

Hmmm..... So I'm still not so sure about the events of this afternoon at the airport... I am going to be analyzed and picked apart by a brotherhood. A little pressure but thats ok I suppose... I mean. Shouldnt matter really Im opaque...no wait! But you know.... Its what I meant I suppose. Its just that it didnt quite come out right. Oh well. Take it as you wish. Laugh at me. Thats fine.

Anyway I keep thinking that Memphis is only 6.5 hours away however I just cant think of a time when it would be good to go. man it would be AWESOME though. But plans on Wednesday for jack and thanksgiving on Thursday make it difficult. That only leaves Tuesday, Friday and Saturday. And I have plans w/ Caleb Saturday. Oh well... Memphis rock city will probably have to wait til some other time. GRR

So my car just got towed. Sucks! But at least I know that it is going to be fixed. :-)

MIKE CALLED> what the crap? its so random. I havent talked to him in well over a month. He said he never got my card. I was SHOCKED to hear from him. Not sure how to react to that. He said that he is moving to Florida in June. Hmmm. He said he is gonna move down there and be about an hour or two away from his parents. Interesting. But maybe that¡¦s what he needs. He has seemed to be in a rut lately and seems like hes kinda searching. Searching for what... Im not quite sure but maybe for purpose or happiness.something. Who knows? I just hope that helps to make him happy.

Anyway... Im gonna wrap it up now. Do some last minute stuff to get ready to go. I will be heading out in less than an hour to head to the airport. THANK YOU MRS. MILLMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I will try to still post stuff over the holiday but no promises. (no computer at home)
Jack....continue having a BLAST at home w/ MIJ and the rest. Screw the sell out and his g/f. you are right...change isnt fair. And I guess thats what I was getting at about my awkward situations....change. Things have changed. And people who I used to be close to...im not now. So know that I am thinking about you and hoping that things continue to be great! And dont worry about sommer. She just cant help herself...and who could blame her!
Caleb....well...the countdown continues...4.5 hours.....and then coffee followed by your critical analysis. I know you are excited about that one. Just remember that Im opaque. Cant wait to see what you decided about the goatee. ;-) And then...just think...several days w/ your parents and then... wow....what to expect for Saturday?!?! Hmmm. Like I saidI can handle you! No worries.
And to the rest of the world,........
Have a GREAT TURKEY DAY! And eat til it ouches you!
Until next time.......
~Angel

:: BAlbretsen 11:09:00 AM [+] ::
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do you ever wonder if you are the only person left in the world who is still a virgin and who doesnt drink at all?
thats been on my mind today. odd i know ...but oh well. just a thought
:: BAlbretsen 12:06:00 AM [+] ::
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